Yes I think pigeon holing my past experiences into meticulous rationalizations as to how and why things happen has brought me a feeling or need to "burry the past" per se. Which on some levels, is valuable as it has brought me to Taoism haha. But in doing so, I've built a mental wall that I'm trying to cross. But rather than deconstructing and understanding my perceptions, I slowly am coming to accept them as reflections that have built a sense of self or identity, and am using this to live, think, and judge, and ultimately now, surpass. It seems the more I remain devoid of thought, just staying aware rather than being driven upon thought or emotion, the closer I come to myself and nature. The more I live in the flow, the lesser I feel I need to solve something. But by the same token, I agree with Ch. 71, as if I take this perspective as "the answer," I'll be once again setting myself up for battle.